Hey everyone, I hope all is well with all of you! I have been up and down, and up and down, and putting the best roller coasters in the world to shame. I'm trying to stay up though. I've felt very busy this week and yet I feel like I've hardly been productive. How is that?

Well, I was getting ready to resume commissions. I had woken up and rolled up my sleeves and got into my ninja stance going "Ok! Today's a commission work day!" I go and get a bite to eat and 5 minutes later, a new game assignment arrives in my inbox. Which is of course, good, and priority, and makes more money, but part of me goes 0_0;;;. I can be the world's most epic planner and yet I cannot follow my planning most of the time.

So that's good. But it's been stressful because after my last journal about my computer, it SERIOUSLY bit the dust. That sucked up a few days of time, trying to revive it and figure out an alternative FAST. It was so bad I couldn't even back up my photos. My wonderful, amazing host/adoptive family, as I shall refer to them, let me borrow a big old tower computer to do game assignments. My computer's so fried, it can't even load them anymore *sad*. After MUCH TLC, I was able to get it to run the basics, such as writing and minor editing. I still don't know if it can handle Photoshop. I really HOPE it can, and there's many reasons I would prefer it to the great temp computer, but I wonder if it's worth the risk. So far this baby has been ok the past few days, and I'd like to think that means it can handle things that aren't harping on the processor. We'll probably see either tomorrow or the day after. I still dearly hope I can afford a new computer soon, though. They're cheaper out here, and I can get my dream computer for the $500 range when a computer that isn't as good, but needed to do my work would cost almost double that back home. 0_0;;; I'm really hoping for a miracle there. I have a temporary solution as long as I'm here, but I don't know about when I get home. Of course getting me home is the priority, but I still worry about how I'm going to work once I get there. That's very, very important, for both finances and my commissionees.

Obviously, I feel an artistic rage settling on me. I want to get my remaining commissions done well, and fast! In case of the worst, you know. I think I've been so bent planning on "how", my mind just goes screaming right out of my skull and disappears into the realm of theoreticals for at least a few hours. As such, I am completely guilty of not being on top of replies and messages though I mean to be. I promise I will get back to you all shortly. If I forget, don't hesitate to drop me a friendly reminder. So same message as always really: I haven't forgotten about commissions, I'm eager to get back to them, and life/Murphy is an angry she-HULK that keeps trying to ruin my party. I think the current stresses are, perhaps, comparable to having 5 screaming toddlers running around your chair while you're trying to memorize a phone number. A phone number that takes 3 days to write or an 8 hour sitting to complete. All while you're operating on not-good sleep because you have nightmares on a nightly basis and don't get quality rest as a result.

BUT! I am still alive. I'm still strolling along, though it's more of an all-out sprint at walking speed imho. So, short version: I'll get back to messages soon. I'll resume commissions when game assignments are done. My computer is sadsauce. Please pray/send good vibes in addition to the usual request that my husband gets the contract we need, that somehow I'm able to get that new computer (no credit makes it very hard/credit ain't an option). It would be the best long-term by a long shot. But we'll see. As always, hoping for the best.