Edit: The next day, and after reading the overwhelming number of encouraging responses, I feel stronger. I promise to try and get back to you all when I get back home tonight, but in the meantime please know your words mean the world to me. Thank you so much for your amazing support, you guys are so awesome. <3/edit
My dearest friends and watchers here on dA, who have brought so much more joy to me on a daily basis than I could ever convey, I'm writing this journal in one of my darkest moments. Please know I'll get through this, but if I could do so with the support of a few-- well, we all know how much better it feels to know someone's rooting for you.
I can't really go into detail, because it's a legal thing, but on top of a sad night, I got horrible news from my family back in America. Things went so badly today, and there was so much betrayal by family members whom I loved, I'm left in a state of mixed agony and hate, but the pain swells so badly. I lost a portion of my family tonight, who would rather save the reputation of a horrible person who's torn my family apart and caused years of abuse than to defend the children who are suffering, even going so far as to say their words and feelings are nothing but a front. At least 80% of my family are comprised of evil people. I knew some of this growing up, but now I've realized the extent of which the blood is poison.
I'm sure I will delete this journal in the morning, but if any of you are passing through and just so happen to offer a hug-- well, if you could see the tears rolling down my cheeks, I'm sure you'd know how much it would mean to me. I'm sorry for the vagueness because of the situation, and I'm sorry for the state I'm in while writing this, or the fact I'm writing it at all. But I recently told a dear friend she shouldn't worry about what she writes in her journal when she's hurt, and neither should I. But if you read it and feel any form of compassion towards me and especially my family (my true family whom I love and hold close, those innocent souls who are suffering), that sliver that's good-- from the bottom of my heart, thank you. All I can ask is for prayer in this dark moment.
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