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Exhausted

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 15, 2012, 5:37 PM
  • Mood: Tired


Hi everyone, I hope all is well with all of you! Today was one of *those* days, but I finished up another game assignment, which is very liberating! I'm noticing the key symptoms of exhaustion though: my face is breaking out (wow), I'm not very hungry, I have a lot of trouble getting to sleep and an even harder time waking up, and my eyes feel as dry as if I've been up for the past 48 straight hours. A lot of it is being emotional and keeping myself going, hark the incredible imbalance that produces, but such is life at the moment.

My husband has a job interview on Friday. Tomorrow, actually! Or today, if you're in my timezone. I'm *REALLY* hoping this is the one and praying and hoping that everyone else will pray and hope with us, too! I know it would be a milestone in overcoming this incurable funk that has been sitting on my heart and my mind like some deep-reaching fungus. It would go a long long way towards making this household happier, me healthier, and overall an outstanding step towards 2012 being a fantastic year. Fingers crossed! I want to be able to stay here, and I can't tell you how much my heart longs for summer and being able to enjoy it-- long walks, bike rides to new places I haven't been before, open balcony doors to let in the sun and the breeze. There's a certain peace in spring and summer and an inability to feel too far gone.

But I digress. I'm hoping to work out more lineart for commissions tomorrow, though I'm not sure if tomorrow will be another workday or not. If I'm too close to crashing, it may be an off day to do some household chores and organize the Zelda collection-- you know, OTHER productive things, because I never let myself truly rest. I'm more machine than woman--! /shot

Last but DEFINITELY not least, the topic of birthdays recently got brought up to me. Wow, my husband's and my birthdays are really coming up quickly. You know I almost cried when I was asked what I wanted just because my mind has been eons away from thinking about the lighthearted things. But there's something I'm dying to get my husband, something unique and SO so special. I've asked Mom to help me look into it, and it's affordable, but I will need a little extra help from commissions to make it possible! I will keep you all posted and in the meantime work on clearing the list. :thanks:

So that's it on my end. Let's hope, pray, wish, send good vibes, even just a smile in hopes that this is the job we've been waiting for. Let's hope this is the end of the excruciating wait and that life can begin again with unbridled joy.




  Game Assignment Status: N/A  



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:star-empty:= thinking/sketching, :star-half:= linework completed, :star:= coloring






:bulletgreen::bulletpurple::bulletgreen:Artwork Status:bulletgreen::bulletpurple::bulletgreen:

*SerenFey Commission Trade :lock:
=Rolytic Commissions :star-empty::star-empty:
*Ryuu-Atrineas Commissions :star::star-half:
*Luifex Commission :star-half:
*Stormsworder Commissions :lock:





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:icondaybreak-adder:
I hope that this job interview goes well!
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*Niraven Mar 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks! :)
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:iconcelestialien86:
~Celestialien86 Mar 15, 2012  Student Digital Artist
You do what you can, hun. :hug: You'll make it through and I wish the best of luck for your husband.
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*Niraven Mar 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you, let us hope! :hug:
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~Celestialien86 Mar 15, 2012  Student Digital Artist
You're welcome. I was hoping for my sister too, but she lost her luck, even though she has been bugging the crap out the shop that was hiring.
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*Niraven Mar 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry to hear that. Best of luck to your sister. <3
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:iconcelestialien86:
~Celestialien86 Mar 15, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Thanks. ^^ My parents have noticed that I cannot find myself a job because of my autism and we live in the town full of ignorant people.
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*Niraven Mar 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
That's a real shame! I hope you find your niche someday. :) My brother-in-law has autism and eventually got a job as a train conductor on an old steam train, which is a dream come true for him. If anything it shows me there's definitely hope in that department.
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~Celestialien86 Mar 15, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Thanks! ^_^ I am sure that I will find something that will let me do something for once. ^^
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