Hey everyone, I hope all is well with all of you. Once again, life has not gone in my favor. Complications have arisen, and after having arrived in San Diego today I'll be turning right back around and heading back to the Bay Area about 3 weeks earlier than expected. When I called to inform my previous hosts of the changes, I accidentally woke both of them up, so I am feeling terribly guilty at the moment.

It's not that things are bad here at all, it's that there's so many PTSD triggers that I find myself dangerously depressed and in unspeakable emotional pain. I wasted money on my plane ticket for December and have to buy a new one (non-refundable), and it makes me cry for many reasons (including that I spent all my money on the first tickets after the first round of bad news), but the golden question is how much does self-preservation cost?

So I'm not doing too well. It seems things are just going worse and worse for me. It's so hard to keep going when you have no money to get you there, no place to call home, are relying on the mercy of other people, and are separated from everything you love. I miss my husband so terribly, all I want is to go home... At least I got my replacement tablet pen, and it works, so I'll try to resume commissions sometime this week or so. I'll try at least, I'll do my very best. I'm so desperate for good things...
Maybe if you can you should go to some beauty parlor or something of this kind where everyone will take care of you, make some massages or things like this. I'm sure that it will help, you feel revived when you go out of these. ^^ Don't force yourself, don't run in all directions and just take time for you, only making very little simple things for a little time. Sometimes it helps to make the point on the current situation and get a new start then.
I really hope that these little words will be able to help you *hug*
Joshua 1:9 "Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest."