Under the Weather by *Niraven on deviantART

Hey everyone, I hope all of you are well!

I'm afraid I'm a bit under the weather. Right now's one of those moments where a whole bunch of things have piled up and left me incredibly fatigued and under the weather. I'm very insecure with how I've been treated socially lately, I'm going through an insanely stressful family-related issue I'm not at liberty to discuss, my work is backed-up and I've been sleeping very poorly. Yesterday my stomach started giving me major issues and it's carried over to today, where I'm pale, having cold-sweats, and having those nasty mock-throw-up moments in my mouth. Headaches come and go from the stress, and I'm afraid I just have to take a break.

Not a whole lot has been going on with me lately because of the stress and legal run-around. It's agony because I want to work on my commissions.

But maybe it's a good thing to take a couple days away. Tomorrow is the 11th and it's always a difficult time of the year. It's becoming more and more apparent to me I'm not treating myself nearly as well (or "normally" for that matter) as I should be. I still want to finish my commissions by the end of this month and re-open them in October.

Aside from that, apparently it's contest season for me! I entered three contests, all Zelda-related: one's a drawing for a Darunia statue, one's the contest you've heard me go on and on about *Woodland-Mel is hosting, and one's a contest to show off your Zelda collection (to be the biggest Zelda fan of a certain Dutch gaming site) and win all-inclusive tickets to the Zelda symphony in London. I got the notice this morning we didn't win the Darunia statue, but that's alright. Yesterday was the deadline for the Zelda collection one, so I'm anxiously awaiting the results. I think we stand a very good chance of winning (I made a video I'll share another time), but I'm still really nervous. And then of course I'm checking daily for new entries to the calendar contest. I'm really not helping myself, am I? I get so caught up in these contests, I can't help myself! I'm not sure if I should be proud or ashamed of myself, but I'm doing my best. I think general-life anxiety leaks over into the things I'm excited about and I get exceptionally nervous. I'd love for it all to just be over and done-with: it's the waiting that's complete agony.

But despite that, life's not bad. It's just a really rough patch at the moment that should be better soon (at least I dearly hope!). How's life been for all of you? Share good news here, it helps pick me up.